Updates from October, 2009

  • Awesome Sauce on the side, Please.

    Gret 9:13 AM on 12/10/2009 | 0 Permalink

    http://www.timesonline.co.uk/tol/news/science/biology_evolution/article6869475.ece

    I would totally get one as a pet.

     
  • So, yeah, right?

    Gret 5:40 PM on 02/09/2009 | 0 Permalink

    Manic Depression(Bipolar Disorder) runs on my moms side of the family, she’s had is since she was a teen(as well as anxiety).  I have anxiety(tried meds for it, but the side effects were not worth it), and I believe I may be Manic Depressive as well, though I have not been diagnosed because I can’t afford <i>any</i> more medical bills(as my fiancee put it, I’m the “most depressed optimist” he knows).  I’m usually up beat and happy to see people I know, or talk with anyone about whatever, but I have rather low points, typically when I’m alone(I think it’s the feeling of loneliness combined with the time to think that kick starts it).  I went through a period of depression as a teen, like most people do, and thought that was the end of it, but so much shit has happened between age 14 and now, that I can’t put it down to “just a phase”.  I know the stress, the hormone imbalance, and the family history all play a role, and I’m starting to worry that one of these days, the “low point” will be too much(the only thing that has kept it from being “too much” now, is the fear of hurting those I’d leave behind).  There are many things about me that most people would never guess(and are usually shocked to find out), I’m pretty good at putting on a happy face, but 7 years of wear is starting to crack the happy smile, and the eyes of that mask don’t seem as bright.  It’s harder to cover up an episode than it used to be; more and more little thing are setting them off, things that usually wouldn’t phase me.  If it’s not clear by now, I’m typing this as I’m going through a “low point”, and I really want reassurance from some one who has gone through this, or is going through this that it does get better.  I know that it does, but it’s just really hard to believe that right now.  A big part of me wants to delete this post, and in a few days, or even a few hours I may do that, but I so desperately want the feeling of isolation to just go away, to disappear and leave me in peace.  I just need to share this.  Share how I’m feeling.  Partially to get some help from those who can offer it, and partially for those who care to know me a little better.  Even most of my real life friends don’t know about this side of me.  If anyone has anything to say about it(even if it’s to chastise me for being “weak” of feeling sorry for myself, you can email me, or message me via AIM, my screen name is rollerchik6.

     
  • Minneh-sooota, eh

    Gret 7:55 PM on 12/07/2009 | 0 Permalink

    So I’m back home now.  I took lots and lots and lots of pictures to share wiff you all!  Very excited to be home, if that wasn’t abundantly clear.  Ended up watching my grandma’s dogs and sitting in the trailer with her and my mom, because she didn’t really want to do anything, and didn’t really want us to do anything either.  I think she just didn’t want to be alone, and completely forgot that I hadn’t been there in 7 years, so was essentially missing out on a lot by sitting there, doing nothing.  Only had one tick actually latch on to me, and the other on just wandered around on my pants aimlessly.  My cousin and her frined got sick on the way up there, so didn’t really have a great time either, but they got to check out a concert.  My grandma had a good time, so that’s good, and my mom wants to make another trip with me, KoBach and my dad, so I’m up for that.  I’ll post the pics soon, too tired right now, and still need to sort through them.

    I have some news: If any Wogs out there are interested in purchasing(or co-purchasing) 92 acres of wild wood up in Mahtawa, MN(near Barnum), please let me know, my ass-hole uncle is selling it, in spite of the fact that our family has been going up there for decades(it was family land until he bought it from my grandpa for back-taxes, leaving the rest of us with 10 acres).  If he manages to sell it, it’s very likely that I, and my brothers/cousins/uncles will never be able to set foot on that land again.  I grew up fishing, camping, and cooking out on that land, and he’s willing to deny us the chance to keep it by asking $298, 000 for it!  No one in our family can afford that, and he only makes it up there once a year(if that, while my uncles, and grandfather(when he was alive and able) take/took care of that land)!  Like I said, it’s 92 acres, and has an unfinished cabin over looking the lake, too.  It would cost several thousand more than the asking price to finish the cabin, get it plumbed and to get electricity out there(the cabin is wired, and has a generator at the moment).  If anyone is interested in learning more, please contact me via email at brokenhappy@gmail.com.

    Edit: I just found out tonight that my dad is going to try to buy the land back from my uncle for back taxes(heh), but I would still like to hear from people on the subject, and I would really love some suggestions, too.

     
  • Trip

    Gret 11:13 AM on 07/07/2009 | 0 Permalink

    Okay, so I’ll be out of town until Sunday afternoon.  I’ll be up near/in Barnum/Moose-lake, MN region.  Out in the woods, so no internet access, might not have a phone either, depends on how much time is put into setting up the cabin.  I’ll take loads of pics(always do when I’m up there) and post them when I return.  KoBach will have to keep everyone up to speed on everything.  I’ll be leaving tomorrow morning, at 7 AM, wish me luck!

     
  • Here is something to think about.

    Gret 2:27 PM on 14/05/2009 | 0 Permalink

    http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/health/8047321.stm

    Just because it’s valid, doesn’t mean it’s an excuse.

     
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